Guilty

I don't know why I do this to myself.
I put myself it a bad position
I consciously know what I am doing yet I still do it.
And then it haunts me.
It eats away at me.
Clouds my mind and over takes my thoughts.
I feel bad
I am not the type of person to let others down.
But I did.
Now it's all I'll be able to think about.
Disappointed others.
Disappointed myself.
It makes me crazy.
But I'm the only one to blame.

don't worry I didn't kill anyone or anything.

But now I feel a little better.

word to your mother.