Could you pass me that ice pick?

I need it to gouge my eyes out. I had a dream last night. A horrible one. So I guess that classifies it as a nightmare. I won't give the details because it is too terrible. But here are the highlights. W, a bikini, and a body piercing. I'm sure if anyone could have seen my face when I awoke they would have seen the sheer look of terror on my face.

Moving on...

So I got to thinking. With Easter's church sermon and a lecture in my Ethnic Politics class, I got to thinking about the Jews.

First from church. The pastor was rambling about how it was amazing how Jesus rose from the dead instead of ya know, staying dead. How it was a miracle and wonderful and all that shizz. So my thoughts went to if Jesus didn't rise up, does that make everyone Jewish? Well, not everyone but the Christians. Cuz without Jesus rising up then what's the point of Christianity? That's like our whole thing. Yaaay! Our Savior is here!

Second from my lecture. The whole Anit-Semitism comes from the fact that Christians don't like Jewish people because they are Jesus Killers. My question is, once again, if Jesus had not been crucified then what? There would be no point to Christianity! We get all excited about God's son dying to save our sins yet some don't like the Jews for killing Jesus? I mean...really! What the hell is that all about?! Sure anti-semitism changed over time but the fundamental principle was the whole Jesus killer thing.

And that, ladies and gents, is why I have a hard time believing. It isn't the world being created in seven days or Noah living to be ridiculously old. It is that I don't understand the thought process. I don't get why God will come back and kill us all on Judgement Day. Isn't he supposed to love us? Why sacrifice your son to save us if you're just gonna come and wipe us out anyways? It just baffles my mind! I cannot wrap my head around the thinking. I can't suspend reality for my whole life just to have faith. It's not gonna happen.